chapter three

I run away. Pushing paparazzi and fans, I clean my way up. I’m rude but no one seems to notice that. All I want to do is escape. Karlie made me feel like shit. I told her not to kiss me in public but she did. I can’t believe. I run through New York streets, people stop, look at me, try to say something. I keep running. When I get to my apartment, I’m about to throw my lungs up. I have a problem with the doorknob, but finally I’m in my flat. I run to the living room and fall on the sofa. I’m about to pass out. My girlfriend ruined my life. I was supposed to have a photoshoot with her but she ruined everything. I don’t have to wonder if Max’s pissed off. I know he is. I ran away, instead of staying there and let him take a bunch of photos of Karlie and me. But I feel like my choice was good. My breath slows down. I grab my phone and call Ella. I cry, trying to explain her everything. ‘I told her not to show her emotions towards me in public, but she ignored me! She kissed me when everyone was watching! Oh my God, whyyyyy???’ Ella sighs. ‘Well Taylor, I’m sorry that that happened. She should apologise you. I’ll talk to her.’ ‘You promise?’ ‘I promise. She must apologise. You told her not to act like that but she did anyway. That was rude and disturbed your feelings. Don’t worry baby.’ ‘Thank you Ella. I don’t know what I’d do without you.’ ‘I can visit you.’ ‘No. I’d like to be alone for some time.’ ‘I’ll come anyway.’ I end call and curl up on the sofa. Ella comes 12 minutes later. When she appears at the door, I burst out crying. She puts me on the sofa and covers with pink blanket. ‘What happened?’ she asks. ‘Karlie and I are in relationship. And we were supposed to keep it in a secret. But SHE KISSED ME IN PUBLIC!!’ I cry. ‘Don’t worry.’ she hugs me. ‘But what would you do if you were me?! We’ll be on every magazine’s front page! I’d rather die than go out tomorrow.’ Ella thinks a while. ‘Maybe she wanted them to know.’ I don’t say anything. Ella gets up and goes to the kitchen. ‘I’ll make you a tea, okay?’ ‘Fine.’ I say. ‘But think what she feels right now. You ran away from her. You didn’t give her a chance to explain anything. You just ran away. That wasn’t right.’ ‘Oh yeah, and you DEFEND her! Great! My best friend is against me now!’ I can’t stop the sarcasm. It’s just coming out of my mouth. ‘Fine.’ says Ella. ‘I think I’ll go now.’ She walks away. Great. Now no one left. Or… I grab my laptop and google myself. I don’t usually do it, but I’m so thirsty. First thing I see is: SWIFTIES ARE IN DEEP SHOCK: KARLIE KLOSS JUST KISSED TAYLOR IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. Aha. TAYLOR SWIFT IS A LESBIAN? Oh. No. KARLIE KLOSS AND TAYLOR SWIFT IN RELATIONSHIP? PROOF-SEE PICTURES BELOW. ‘NO!’ I scream. ‘NO!’ It all has started. And I can’t stop it. All I can do is sit and watch. My phone starts ringing but I don’t care. I just stare at the monitor. It’s unbelievable. Those rumours will kill me. I sigh. And everything’s Karlie’s fault… At the same moment when I think of her, she appears at my door. I wrapped my arms around my legs and I sit on the chair, numb and quiet. ‘Taylor?’ I don’t react. ‘Taylor?’ she doesn’t give up. ‘What?!’ I hiss. ‘I’m sorry.’ ‘Yeah?? That’s your explanation?! ‘I’m sorry.’? You can do better.’ We sit in silence. ‘Why did you do this?’ I whisper. ‘I…’ Karlie hesitates. ‘I had to show the world.’ ‘Without telling me.’ ‘Without telling you.’ ‘Damn you.’ I get up and run out of my flat.

                I run. And run. Away. People look strangely at me but I’m sure they don’t know who I am as I run so fast. I just noticed that I’m barefoot. Great. It’s so fucking cold and it started to snow again. I’m shaking and I wrap my arms around me. People look even more strangely at me when I stop. ‘Look, that’s Taylor Swift!’ I hear. ‘What’s she doing?’ ‘She kissed Karlie Kloss.’ I can’t stand it anymore. ‘I DON’T FUCKING LOVE KARLIE OKAY? I STOPPED AFTER SHE KISSED ME! OUR RELATIONSHIP WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A SECRET! FUCK YOU ALL! I HATE YOU! I HATE THE WHOLE WORLD!’ I scream. I think of hypothermia and I go back home. I try to run but my joints refuse working. So I walk, what is very difficult. I had no idea that I came so far. My feet start to freeze when kneel on my knees and fall on the ground. Before I pass away, I hear someone calling emergency.